Time
It's been a while since I last posted anything (not that anyone seems to be reading my blog). Unfortunately, procrastination has been running wild in my life recently. It seems that I have so much to do in so little time, that I am constantly putting things off for later. Definately not a very good idea!
So, I'm sitting at my kitchen table, drinking tea, and contemplating my life. If you've been reading my blog at all, you'll notice that I have been quite contemplative of late. I guess it's a sure sign of getting older. I'm 34, and yet I feel like I have not really lived my life. I would love nothing more than to settle down and get married and start a family. Finding a woman desperate enough is another matter all together though. That's where I find myself at this moment. Friends and family are doing their best to help - so it's not like I am on my own. However, sometimes it does feel like I am alone - alone in a crowd of people.
Hold on - need to get my next cup - back in a moment.
So, I'm back. (muted applause!)
Where was I - yes - feeling sorry for myself! Is there anything worse? I need some direction in my life. I need some attainable goals - something that I can focus on. I have a couple of things in mind, but as usual, I can't make up my mind and select some!
So what else has been going on in the world ? Well, the case against members of the Bush administration for leaking Valerie Plame's identity has been rejected by a Federal Judge. Colour me surprised :o)
I was hoping that despite partisan bickering, what they did in revealing her identity crossed the line. While President Bush loudly claimed that he would fire anyone from his administration that was involved in this, his recent treatment of Scooter Libby contradicts that.
I am so glad that I am not a politician. It really does seem to be a thankless job. Throw in the fact that you can't really please everyone, and you have a position that will most probably cause you more pain than pleasure. Although I am sure that they make a pretty penny from it :o)
Oh, and I've ordered myself a laptop from Dell. One of the new XPS models. I feel terribly awful about spending what I did, but I've not owned a laptop in many years - more than 7 actually. I use my office laptop for whatever I need, but I would like to do some development on my own machine - hence the purchase. In retrospect, I should have ordered something more standard, but I figure that I will have to tote it around with my existing IBM ThinkPad - so the smaller the better!!
It takes at least 6 weeks to get that laptop (according to the Dell website) since they are so popular. However, I chatted with one of their sales reps, and he is getting me one within 3 weeks since he knows some people on the shop floor who can speed up the process. I should be getting mine in a little over 2 weeks (I placed the order 6 days ago) - that's not too bad is it ?
My hair is now pretty long again, and I am sorely tempted to shave it all off. I can't drive in my car with the windows open as it kind of pushes it over my head in a weird attempt at a comb over. I say weird, because I have a full head of hair - I don't need a comb over!! However, my mother has expressed her delight at seeing me with more hair - so I am growing it for her. I hope that I have the strength to keep it like this though - I would so love to go back to my ZMH - my Zero Maintenance Haircut. That's when I go to Great Clips and say "# 2 all around please!"
The sky is a little mixed - it looks overcast in some areas, and I can see clear blue sky in others. I really want it to rain - my front garden is on its last legs. I have not had any luck in setting up the sprinkler system - that was supposed to be my task for the day, but.....
I guess I will make a trip to Home Depot tomorrow at lunchtime and get the rest of what I need - I will then come back and set it all up with the timers, and with a bit of luck, it will all work!!!
Anyway, I have made some philosophical comments, but I think that I now know what it is that I need to do. I need to make up for the mistakes of my past. I know where I have gone wrong before, and while some failure was inevitable, I have to take responsibility for where I am in life today.
It makes me think of the end of Robert Frost's immortal poem - "Stopping by the woods on a snowy evening".
"For I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep."
So let me end this with some impromptu poetry of my own.
Hmmm...what can I use as the subject?
How about life ?
Well, here goes. Please note that I am making this up on the spot - this is not something that I have had hours to work on!
Life
When I was young, I used to wonder
Of where I would be when I was older
Would I be settled, or footloose and free?
Would my world be torn asunder?
Sorry - I can't think of anything more - my head is starting to throb. I'm going to have another cup of tea and relax. I'll think of more to post and will post later.
Thanks for reading. Whoever you are, take care, and I hope that good things happen to you.
Cheers!!
So, I'm sitting at my kitchen table, drinking tea, and contemplating my life. If you've been reading my blog at all, you'll notice that I have been quite contemplative of late. I guess it's a sure sign of getting older. I'm 34, and yet I feel like I have not really lived my life. I would love nothing more than to settle down and get married and start a family. Finding a woman desperate enough is another matter all together though. That's where I find myself at this moment. Friends and family are doing their best to help - so it's not like I am on my own. However, sometimes it does feel like I am alone - alone in a crowd of people.
Hold on - need to get my next cup - back in a moment.
So, I'm back. (muted applause!)
Where was I - yes - feeling sorry for myself! Is there anything worse? I need some direction in my life. I need some attainable goals - something that I can focus on. I have a couple of things in mind, but as usual, I can't make up my mind and select some!
So what else has been going on in the world ? Well, the case against members of the Bush administration for leaking Valerie Plame's identity has been rejected by a Federal Judge. Colour me surprised :o)
I was hoping that despite partisan bickering, what they did in revealing her identity crossed the line. While President Bush loudly claimed that he would fire anyone from his administration that was involved in this, his recent treatment of Scooter Libby contradicts that.
I am so glad that I am not a politician. It really does seem to be a thankless job. Throw in the fact that you can't really please everyone, and you have a position that will most probably cause you more pain than pleasure. Although I am sure that they make a pretty penny from it :o)
Oh, and I've ordered myself a laptop from Dell. One of the new XPS models. I feel terribly awful about spending what I did, but I've not owned a laptop in many years - more than 7 actually. I use my office laptop for whatever I need, but I would like to do some development on my own machine - hence the purchase. In retrospect, I should have ordered something more standard, but I figure that I will have to tote it around with my existing IBM ThinkPad - so the smaller the better!!
It takes at least 6 weeks to get that laptop (according to the Dell website) since they are so popular. However, I chatted with one of their sales reps, and he is getting me one within 3 weeks since he knows some people on the shop floor who can speed up the process. I should be getting mine in a little over 2 weeks (I placed the order 6 days ago) - that's not too bad is it ?
My hair is now pretty long again, and I am sorely tempted to shave it all off. I can't drive in my car with the windows open as it kind of pushes it over my head in a weird attempt at a comb over. I say weird, because I have a full head of hair - I don't need a comb over!! However, my mother has expressed her delight at seeing me with more hair - so I am growing it for her. I hope that I have the strength to keep it like this though - I would so love to go back to my ZMH - my Zero Maintenance Haircut. That's when I go to Great Clips and say "# 2 all around please!"
The sky is a little mixed - it looks overcast in some areas, and I can see clear blue sky in others. I really want it to rain - my front garden is on its last legs. I have not had any luck in setting up the sprinkler system - that was supposed to be my task for the day, but.....
I guess I will make a trip to Home Depot tomorrow at lunchtime and get the rest of what I need - I will then come back and set it all up with the timers, and with a bit of luck, it will all work!!!
Anyway, I have made some philosophical comments, but I think that I now know what it is that I need to do. I need to make up for the mistakes of my past. I know where I have gone wrong before, and while some failure was inevitable, I have to take responsibility for where I am in life today.
It makes me think of the end of Robert Frost's immortal poem - "Stopping by the woods on a snowy evening".
"For I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep."
So let me end this with some impromptu poetry of my own.
Hmmm...what can I use as the subject?
How about life ?
Well, here goes. Please note that I am making this up on the spot - this is not something that I have had hours to work on!
Life
When I was young, I used to wonder
Of where I would be when I was older
Would I be settled, or footloose and free?
Would my world be torn asunder?
Sorry - I can't think of anything more - my head is starting to throb. I'm going to have another cup of tea and relax. I'll think of more to post and will post later.
Thanks for reading. Whoever you are, take care, and I hope that good things happen to you.
Cheers!!
posted by Manoj at
4:52 PM
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