New beginnings

A friend of mine is moving to NJ next week. It's a sudden move, and it leaves me feeling sad. However, as everyone knows, life doesn't always go your way, and while I am sad to see him and his family leave, I am glad that he was able to get a good job up there.

So, what else...hmmmm. Well, as you probably know (if you've ever had the misfortune to read my blog) that my life is relatively boring. Relative to pretty much everyone else in the world! I can't complain though, since life has been tougher than this. It's weird sometimes. Let me explain. Sometimes, something happens that causes you to regress, and go back in time, to a part of your life where things were so different. I'm sure that it has happened to you at some point too!! It can be meeting a person, it can be a song, or even just reading something that opens the floodgates and lets memories come rushing back.

My last post was about Scrubs. Here's something related to that - Joshua Radin. He has sung some songs on Scrubs, and they were absolutely fantastic! He had an emotional song on Scrubs, and here is that video:



The lyrics for that song:

i should know who i am by now
i walk the record stands somehow
thinking of winter
your name is the splinter inside me while i wait

and i remember the sound
of your november downtown
and i remember the truth
a warm december with you
but i don't have to make this mistake
and i don't have to stay this way
if only i would wait

the walk has all been cleared by now
your voice is all i hear somehow
calling out winter
your voice is the splinter inside me while i wait

and i remember the sound
of your november downtown
and i remember the truth
a warm december with you
but i don't have to make this mistake
and i don't have to stay this way
if only i would wait

i could have lost myself
in rough blue waters in your eyes
and i miss you still

and i remember the sound
of your november downtown
and i remember the truth
a warm december with you
but i don't have to make this mistake
and i don't have to stay this way
if only i would wait


Here's the complete song:



In a rather fatalistic frame of mind some years ago, I told my cousin that if I died before he did, I wanted him to play Def Leppard's "All I want is everything".

Here's the video for that song:



Here are the lyrics:

I dont know how to leave you
And I dont know how to stay
Ive got things that I must tell you
That I dont know how to say

The man behind these empty words
Is crying out in shame
Holding on to this sinking ship
When nothing else remains

All I want is everything
Am I asking too much?
All I want is everything
Like the feel of your touch
But all I have are yesterdays
Tomorrow never comes

Its hard to hold your head up
When youre kneeling down to pray
And the talking dooesnt come easy now
When the words get in the way
And if you could see whats going on
Behind these private eyes
The truth would look so easy now
But Im running out of lies

You think the shadow of doubt
Is hangin over my head
Its just an angel whose wings hide the sun
And its myself I betray
I can not wish this away
Took my chance now the damage is done

All I want is everything
Am I asking too much?
All I want is everything
Like the feel, the feel of your touch
When all I have are yesterdays
Tomorrow never comes

Ooh, oooh
Ooh, oooh

I don't know what it is, but I just love that song. From the moment that I first heard it, it has been stuck in my heart. This one verse really affects me:

You think the shadow of doubt
Is hangin over my head
Its just an angel whose wings hide the sun
And its myself I betray
I can not wish this away
Took my chance now the damage is done

Anyway, thinking along those lines, I think that I will add Winter by Joshua Radin to that playlist.